Emma Roberts in Adult World (2013)
Did you ever have to find a way to survive and you knew your choices were bad, but you had to survive?
❝ I’m still in touch with reality and I see this business for what it is, which is a playground. I’m playing. I work at imagining things. None of this is real. None of this actually matters. I don’t have a sense of superiority. I feel lucky but I don’t feel special. I don’t think there’s ever a moment where I feel like I deserve it. The celebrity and fame thing and the acting part of it are two separate things. The celebrity part of it is so predictable. I’m not wowed by it. ❞
Nothing in this world has ever made me happier than seeing my newborn daughter being cared for by the love of my life. He has made an absolutely wonderful father. I can’t say that I’m surprised, but he really is a natural with babies. She’s a total daddy’s girl already.
This baby goat is having the time of its freaking life
I am 4 days overdue and today my boyfriend’s mom came home and said “I hate to ruin your day but (my bf’s cousin’s wife) is in labor.”
She’s 5-6 weeks behind me. Aside from the obvious health risks, I am super upset because that should be ME. Not her. Not just because that baby is not ready, but because I put my time in. I know this sounds awful but this also comes after a week of everyone I know who was due within the same week as me (even AFTER me) having their babies and me just sitting here still being fucking pregnant. I can’t deal with this, I am absolutely distraught.
I’m SO TIRED of being pregnant. I put my time in and now I’m here sore, tired and can barely move because I have this child wedged in my pelvis. I can’t do anything I enjoy anymore, I can’t even fucking walk around without being in agonizing pain. It’s not fair. All of this and I have nothing to show for it. I don’t have a baby in my arms and I still have people preaching to me what I can and cannot do. I’m just so tired. I can’t even sleep at night and when I do finally get to sleep between contractions at night, I can never stay asleep for longer than an hour because I either have to pee or my hips hurt BADLY. I’m afraid of what can happen to my baby inside of me where I cannot monitor her or look at her and hold her. I’m afraid she’s not getting enough oxygen or is going to aspirate meconium or that she doesn’t have enough fluid or that her cord is going to compress. I am so fucking terrified and so fucking tired. No matter what I know I will have her within the week but god dammit I just want her now. I can’t. WHY CAN’T ANYTHING EVER GO MY WAY EVER? LIKE JUST FUCKING ONCE IN MY LIFE.
AND WHO EVER HAS SAID “OH I LOVE BEING PREGNANT LADEEDA” IS A FUCKING LIAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!